Today was a difficult day. Though I can't place my finger on it, or perhaps I can but am not yet willing, I feel an ominously dark shadow in my heart's core. Like a melancholy storm on the horizon, the smell of rain is in the air though the tears have not yet fallen. I feel less than worthy today and the torrent of self-doubt and deprecation are mercilessly battering my defenses. I am unable to reach out to those around me, unable to ask for help. So instead I post my emotional turbulance in a blog on the internet for everyone to read. How does one find an answer to a question buried so deep that it is unrecognizable? It is up to me to find a way to save myself from this personal hell I have created. The tears refuse to fall as I realize that sometimes I am the loneliest when surrounded by others... ...but still I carry on.
About Me
- Joey
- I seem to be endlessly searching for the next best thing. I though I found it, but as kind as life can be to grant moments of true happiness it can also be cruel and take them away just as quickly. These highs and lows are part of the living process, and this is my attempt to document my search for happiness.
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